Wedding.. Wedding Wedding!

Ok this is a lot of stress and I honestly don't know how we're going to do this wedding business lol. I wish we had a nice back yard to have our wedding at. It'd be really nice.. But we don't. And we have family that does but it's an hour and a half up northern New York..

Should we use their property and just invite people to see if they'll show up or what? Oh I don't know. I know that we need to get on the ball of planning this wedding! And we definitely need to get on the ball of setting a for sure date and saving up more money!

We are on a very very tight budget and that's not helpful what so ever when it comes to planning a wedding. So we'll have to downsize our list! We won't be able to pay for peoples hotels/motel stays. They'll have to take care of that them selves. Does that make me a bad bride or person?

A lot of places around here won't even hear of having a same sex wedding at their venue and that really upsets me and bothers me. But I'm supposed to just accept that as well right?

I just really wished that something or someone would say hey i'm close buy use my place at no charge and who cares if you're a lesbian. But lesbionest about that one lol. Too many close minded people in this world that is for sure!

Dawn's grandma wants us to do it in her back yard but I don't think so.. It's sadly a nice yard but it's a mess. There are people there that like to ruin things and just trash things. It's sad. You ask them to keep up with it and stop doing the things they are doing to ruin the yard but they don't care! It has nothing to do with them so why should they right? HA!

I'm starting to think we should just dress up in our dresses and walk our happy selves down to the Justice of Peace ( it's literally right down the street from my house) and get married then throw a reception/party afterwards. BYOB? Too redneck? Well I don't care lol. I'm an okie and I said Bring Your Own Beer if you wanna party it up! It's not a party to us. It's a day of becoming one and celebrating that we're able to do so in the state of New York!

Any tips or ideas? Would it be terrible to use paper plates if we're having a summer wedding and doing a cook out thing? Oh I need some guidance and help because lord knows I (Aleasha) will be planning and doing everything. I just need help. Is that too much to ask of or for?

Sorry for being a baby. I'm just stressing about how to go about the wedding. I can't even think of a theme or idea on how to come up with one.? Gay Pride wedding? Too tacky? HELP HELP HELP!!

Aleasha

Here goes to wedding planning! AGAIN!

  

    So we weren't able to get married last year because NOTHING was working out at all! Everything was getting in our way or nothing was working out and we just said ENOUGH! It was obviously not meant to get married yet. So we will for sure be saying I Do this year! I don't care if it's at just the Justice of peace tbh lol. But of course I want a wedding. I'm a girl! Come on! lol

   I've got a book called: Wedding Planning for Dummies lol.. Yes they made a book just for that! And I'm also using Pinterest for inspiration as well. We don't come from money what so ever so we're going to be paying for everything and funding everything. It'll be tight and a challenge but totally worth it in the end.

   I do plan on going to Micheal's again to start stocking up on wedding supplies. I'll write a blog about what we need and everything else.

   Seeing we're a same sex couple trying to have a same sex wedding in the state of NEW YORK where it is officially LEGAL! YAY US! We'd love to hear some ideas. Maybe y'all know of vendors that'd help donate their services to us since we don't come from that much money. Anything donated would be used and greatly appreciated that's for sure!

   We need to sit down and make an OFFICIAL wedding date and stick to it! I don't want to yo yo on dates again. I really was embarrassed that we kept changing the date and everything and I just don't want to deal with it. If people can't come or have to work then that's their problem. We're choosing a date and sticking to it. Our biggest problem was planning around everyone else's lives and we simply just can't please everyone!

   That being said we understand times are hard and people have to keep working or can't afford to take off of work and that's 100% completely understandable! Would we really like for you to be apart of our special day? Of course we would but we're not going to throw a fit over anyone not being able to come. Because in the end it boils down to it's OUR day.. Not EVERYONE elses day. Right? Right!

   I'm very excited to start planning again! Tomorrow I'll go through the items we need and write up a blog for y'all. Have a great week!

Ok ok ok.. So lol.

Dawn and I have busy lives and it's really hard to find the umph or time to blog. I'll do a short recap from January 2nd up to now. :) Try my best that is lol.

January 2nd 2013-January 8th 2013;

 We had to go back to Dawns work and where she works is just crazy! It's literally like a roller coaster ride of mixed emotions and stress! We went to her job and of course not knowing what to ever expect is a little on edge of an anxiety attack! One day the lady she takes care of is sweet as apple pie and then she's sourer than air heads! But that's to be expected. Especially when she has to deal with a son that is always annoying lol.

So what we've learned on how to deal. Even though we have days that we want to just walk away we need for Dawn to have this job. I'm stuck on workers compensation due to an injury back in 2010. So we now have this out look of we just don't give a damn. Just smile and nod and agree then do the job and leave. That's all you can do. Even if you don't agree it's not worth the argument at all!!! Don't think that we're being cowards to not voice our opinions at all! When you are dealing with "rich" people they think they know EVERYTHING! And we all know they're idiotic jerk faces lol. But back to we aren't cowards at all! If he starts his bs we put him right in his place and tell him to back off. I'm not sure he knows how to handle it but he can deal. With her it's been pretty pleasant and enjoyable to be there since we've had a new outlook and just go with the flow.

Maybe it's not the best out look in the situation and maybe we should walk away but like I said earlier we can't! Especially when our 2nd month cell phone bill was $209.00!!!!! I only get 100.00 weekly with my workers compensation. And Dawn makes 50.00 a day M-F.. We're learning how to budget and spend out money.. It's hard but we're getting there. So this week we had to pay our cell phone bill leaving us with literally 30 dollars to our name for the week. Lets home and pray that I'm getting a check this week some time lol.

So the first week and a half of the new year hasn't been that bad. Just trying to stay on a positive outlook on everything! Yes it can get hard that's for sure but just have to say this is OUR year! I hope everyone is having a great New Year so far!

Prepping to become pregnant!

So my fiance and I have been ttc (trying to conceive) since January! We haven't had any luck in getting pregnant yet!!

Anyways I wanted to share about being in a same sex relationship ttc! First off it's extremely hard with no sperm! Trying to find a donor is a stressful process that's for sure!!

Well due to having problems looking for a donor that we liked and felt comfortable with, we were 

 starting to give up and lose faith that it'd ever happen!!

Well something has sparked in us!! First off Dawn was never really into having kids ever! But she is totally in love with the idea of creating a child! And I love her more and more for it!!

TTC is very very stressful, hard, overwhelming but in the same sense exciting!! We now officially have names picked out and we're in love with his/her names! Although we know that we'll probably only end up having just one child. We've picked out a boy and girl name!

Just about every time Dawn and I go anywhere and there is a baby store near by or baby section we automatically head towards the baby section/store! In the past I'd have to beg and drag Dawn to just look with me!

But I think Dawn has been bit by the baby bug! When I would bring it up in the past it wasn't a good idea! Now she's ready to take this next journey with me! I know she's afraid of messing up, not being good enough or being a bad mommy!

And I know for a fact she's going to be an amazing mommy!! Anyways, back to being bitten bye the baby bug! And running to look at baby stuff! Dawn has falling in love with us having a child!

I'm starting to have to pull her away, and beg her not to buy clothes and ect! Well I buckled and let her pick out these two adorable onesies and OMG they are precious!!

And I have to say that it's a very VERY BIG turn on seeing how excited she is about wanting a baby with me!! Haha! Sorry if it's tmi but it's the honest to god truth! I wish she could be the one to get me pregnant!! But a donor will due!

And I have to say these onesies are just absolutely previously adorable! And every time I look at them I get so excited!! And I fall more and more in love with her!! I love thinking about how amazing of a mother she's going to be!! And how big of a support system she is through all of this! I love you darling!

So I'm going to show you guys a picture of our precious onesies! Thank you for reading my post! And please if anyone can spare their prayers and some sticky icky baby dust it'd be very much appreciated!! And everyone is in my prayers and I wish you all sticky baby dust!

Always,

Aleasha