Update on life

So life has been pretty good! Dawn had 5 amazing days off and it was so nice to just be lazy with my lover!! But it's back to real life as we know it!

We are putting 50.00 aside every week so I can go home for my Nephews graduation in May! It's really tight doing so but it's totally worth it!

I cannot believe how expensive it is to travel! We definitely couldn't afford to fly or take the train so we will taking the mighty uncomfortable bus.. I'm gonna need a complete body massage afterwards lol!

So I'm probably the most clumsy person alive! I was doing dishes and the glass decided to break! Sliced my pinky finger open pretty deep.. I didn't go to the ER because I'm up to date on tetanus and all that!

But other than the silly cut life is good and I have no complaints! I'm happy, and in love! Hope all is well!

Aleasha

Wedding.. Wedding Wedding!

Ok this is a lot of stress and I honestly don't know how we're going to do this wedding business lol. I wish we had a nice back yard to have our wedding at. It'd be really nice.. But we don't. And we have family that does but it's an hour and a half up northern New York..

Should we use their property and just invite people to see if they'll show up or what? Oh I don't know. I know that we need to get on the ball of planning this wedding! And we definitely need to get on the ball of setting a for sure date and saving up more money!

We are on a very very tight budget and that's not helpful what so ever when it comes to planning a wedding. So we'll have to downsize our list! We won't be able to pay for peoples hotels/motel stays. They'll have to take care of that them selves. Does that make me a bad bride or person?

A lot of places around here won't even hear of having a same sex wedding at their venue and that really upsets me and bothers me. But I'm supposed to just accept that as well right?

I just really wished that something or someone would say hey i'm close buy use my place at no charge and who cares if you're a lesbian. But lesbionest about that one lol. Too many close minded people in this world that is for sure!

Dawn's grandma wants us to do it in her back yard but I don't think so.. It's sadly a nice yard but it's a mess. There are people there that like to ruin things and just trash things. It's sad. You ask them to keep up with it and stop doing the things they are doing to ruin the yard but they don't care! It has nothing to do with them so why should they right? HA!

I'm starting to think we should just dress up in our dresses and walk our happy selves down to the Justice of Peace ( it's literally right down the street from my house) and get married then throw a reception/party afterwards. BYOB? Too redneck? Well I don't care lol. I'm an okie and I said Bring Your Own Beer if you wanna party it up! It's not a party to us. It's a day of becoming one and celebrating that we're able to do so in the state of New York!

Any tips or ideas? Would it be terrible to use paper plates if we're having a summer wedding and doing a cook out thing? Oh I need some guidance and help because lord knows I (Aleasha) will be planning and doing everything. I just need help. Is that too much to ask of or for?

Sorry for being a baby. I'm just stressing about how to go about the wedding. I can't even think of a theme or idea on how to come up with one.? Gay Pride wedding? Too tacky? HELP HELP HELP!!

Aleasha

Here goes to wedding planning! AGAIN!

  

    So we weren't able to get married last year because NOTHING was working out at all! Everything was getting in our way or nothing was working out and we just said ENOUGH! It was obviously not meant to get married yet. So we will for sure be saying I Do this year! I don't care if it's at just the Justice of peace tbh lol. But of course I want a wedding. I'm a girl! Come on! lol

   I've got a book called: Wedding Planning for Dummies lol.. Yes they made a book just for that! And I'm also using Pinterest for inspiration as well. We don't come from money what so ever so we're going to be paying for everything and funding everything. It'll be tight and a challenge but totally worth it in the end.

   I do plan on going to Micheal's again to start stocking up on wedding supplies. I'll write a blog about what we need and everything else.

   Seeing we're a same sex couple trying to have a same sex wedding in the state of NEW YORK where it is officially LEGAL! YAY US! We'd love to hear some ideas. Maybe y'all know of vendors that'd help donate their services to us since we don't come from that much money. Anything donated would be used and greatly appreciated that's for sure!

   We need to sit down and make an OFFICIAL wedding date and stick to it! I don't want to yo yo on dates again. I really was embarrassed that we kept changing the date and everything and I just don't want to deal with it. If people can't come or have to work then that's their problem. We're choosing a date and sticking to it. Our biggest problem was planning around everyone else's lives and we simply just can't please everyone!

   That being said we understand times are hard and people have to keep working or can't afford to take off of work and that's 100% completely understandable! Would we really like for you to be apart of our special day? Of course we would but we're not going to throw a fit over anyone not being able to come. Because in the end it boils down to it's OUR day.. Not EVERYONE elses day. Right? Right!

   I'm very excited to start planning again! Tomorrow I'll go through the items we need and write up a blog for y'all. Have a great week!

Ok ok ok.. So lol.

Dawn and I have busy lives and it's really hard to find the umph or time to blog. I'll do a short recap from January 2nd up to now. :) Try my best that is lol.

January 2nd 2013-January 8th 2013;

 We had to go back to Dawns work and where she works is just crazy! It's literally like a roller coaster ride of mixed emotions and stress! We went to her job and of course not knowing what to ever expect is a little on edge of an anxiety attack! One day the lady she takes care of is sweet as apple pie and then she's sourer than air heads! But that's to be expected. Especially when she has to deal with a son that is always annoying lol.

So what we've learned on how to deal. Even though we have days that we want to just walk away we need for Dawn to have this job. I'm stuck on workers compensation due to an injury back in 2010. So we now have this out look of we just don't give a damn. Just smile and nod and agree then do the job and leave. That's all you can do. Even if you don't agree it's not worth the argument at all!!! Don't think that we're being cowards to not voice our opinions at all! When you are dealing with "rich" people they think they know EVERYTHING! And we all know they're idiotic jerk faces lol. But back to we aren't cowards at all! If he starts his bs we put him right in his place and tell him to back off. I'm not sure he knows how to handle it but he can deal. With her it's been pretty pleasant and enjoyable to be there since we've had a new outlook and just go with the flow.

Maybe it's not the best out look in the situation and maybe we should walk away but like I said earlier we can't! Especially when our 2nd month cell phone bill was $209.00!!!!! I only get 100.00 weekly with my workers compensation. And Dawn makes 50.00 a day M-F.. We're learning how to budget and spend out money.. It's hard but we're getting there. So this week we had to pay our cell phone bill leaving us with literally 30 dollars to our name for the week. Lets home and pray that I'm getting a check this week some time lol.

So the first week and a half of the new year hasn't been that bad. Just trying to stay on a positive outlook on everything! Yes it can get hard that's for sure but just have to say this is OUR year! I hope everyone is having a great New Year so far!

ARE YOU KIDDEN ME?

So let me start off with Hi I’m Aleasha and I’m a big fat lesbian!!! Oh and guess what so is my fiance!! Well anyways I’m so for everyone being with ANYONE as long as it is REAL LOVE and REAL HAPPINESS! Not just because you don’t want to be lonely or alone! Well I post things on my facebook about LGBT rights and rainbow stuff to show my support for everyone that may be who they are as a human! And my MIL (mother in law) has a dumb ass boyfriend who I went OUT OF MY WAY to be nice to this prick ass bitch! He commented on a post of mine saying “God damn tone it down a fucking bit. You don’t see me posting about how I’m heterosexual alpha Man hear me roar bullshit all over the place jesus” Ok so I was like excuse me if you don’t like something then go about your own damn business and leave me alone. Well my fiance Dawn at dinner tonight told my MIL that George needs to apologize before he even thinks about coming to our wedding and of course her mom was starting to be snooty saying that she’s not getting in the middle.. Well um excuse me if you were a real.. I mean a REAL fucking woman you would say accept my family and my children or we’re not going to happen at all! Nope of course not.. The dick and money from them is more important to her than her own family! So here we are trying to talk to her calmly about it and explain that what he did was wrong and he should apologize. Well than my fiance’s drunk as idiotic piece of shit uncle turned it into a big fight! And of course like my MIL always does.. Aww poor me I’m not ever supposed to be happy my family is going to choice what I should do with my life booo fucking hoo! No one cares who the fuck she’s with but she always puts the assholes before her family! NEVER would I allow ANYONE to treat my child like this.. I would kill them! I guess this makes me a better person Idk.. But let me ask you a question! If I were your child and your bf,husband,wife,friend,or other family member said that about your child would you honestly take up for that person instead of your child? Be honest.. Would you? Oh and take up for the family member that starts the fight in the first place? I’m so over this and it’s so sad cause I know it hurts Dawn. I know it hurts her a lot that her family is the way that they are.. It really breaks my heart! I just think that Dawn and I need to move away from both families.. Meaning mine and hers and just be happy. Obviously both of our families wanna put us down and be against us. Yeah.. We’re totally moving away from family.. We’ll be our OWN family! I’m sorry but I’m raging pissed over this..
Really Pissed
Aleasha

Hello headache...

Oh and hello you lovely migraine that loves to visit me almost everyday! I'm not trying to complain and I'm so sorry if I'm coming off like this.. But can I get a few days and not have a headache.. I've seriously thought about cutting all of my hair off because it's the longest it's been in years! And when I am doing something like cleaning, doing laundry, cooking and ect.. I have a very bad habit of putting my hair up into a tight pony tail.. Why you might ask.. Well my mother, aunts, grandma and ect would put my hair up sooooooooo tight I swear my face would be pulled back lol. So I'm used to it being tight and neat and out of my way. Having you hair up is not healthy for your hair.. So why keep it long anyways? Well I'm getting married in 1 month 1 week and 1 day! I want my hair to be long and flowing.. Now afterwards is a totally different story lol.. 

Anyways.. I always get these horrible headaches, and they always end up being migraines towards the end of the headache. Then I have these symptoms along with my headaches/migraines: pounding, ringing, dizziness, nausea, hot/cold flashes, short blackouts, and sometimes a clammy feeling.. Not a fun thing to deal with.. I know having my hair growing out doesn't help it.. But like I said I want my hair long for when I say I do.. And I like it! But I don't like dealing with this BS! There are some days the headache is just there but I can cope with it and I just ignore it as much as possible.. But when it gets bad don't even whisper to me! Don't like them at all! Like always dealing with many other medical problems and other painful things in my life.. I try to just get used to it.. And ignore them a lot.. I just don't like the side effects I get from them sometimes.. I mean who wants to be dizzy, nauseous, ears ringing, head throbbing, hot/cold flashes, short blackouts (meaning if I move too fast or walk up or down the stairs it sometimes starts getting dark) 

Anyways I think I'm going to close this post.. And try to lay down for a bit.. Oh BTW! I watched Never say Never by Justin Bieber himself lol.. And I will admit I liked it.. And I'm happy for the guy! Way to go JB! lol Ok I feel weird now! Have a nice day everyone! And may all your dreams, wishes, wants, needs, and desires be fulfilled ♥♥♥♥

Thanks for reading

Always,

Aleasha