Update on life

So life has been pretty good! Dawn had 5 amazing days off and it was so nice to just be lazy with my lover!! But it's back to real life as we know it!

We are putting 50.00 aside every week so I can go home for my Nephews graduation in May! It's really tight doing so but it's totally worth it!

I cannot believe how expensive it is to travel! We definitely couldn't afford to fly or take the train so we will taking the mighty uncomfortable bus.. I'm gonna need a complete body massage afterwards lol!

So I'm probably the most clumsy person alive! I was doing dishes and the glass decided to break! Sliced my pinky finger open pretty deep.. I didn't go to the ER because I'm up to date on tetanus and all that!

But other than the silly cut life is good and I have no complaints! I'm happy, and in love! Hope all is well!

Aleasha

Wedding.. Wedding Wedding!

Ok this is a lot of stress and I honestly don't know how we're going to do this wedding business lol. I wish we had a nice back yard to have our wedding at. It'd be really nice.. But we don't. And we have family that does but it's an hour and a half up northern New York..

Should we use their property and just invite people to see if they'll show up or what? Oh I don't know. I know that we need to get on the ball of planning this wedding! And we definitely need to get on the ball of setting a for sure date and saving up more money!

We are on a very very tight budget and that's not helpful what so ever when it comes to planning a wedding. So we'll have to downsize our list! We won't be able to pay for peoples hotels/motel stays. They'll have to take care of that them selves. Does that make me a bad bride or person?

A lot of places around here won't even hear of having a same sex wedding at their venue and that really upsets me and bothers me. But I'm supposed to just accept that as well right?

I just really wished that something or someone would say hey i'm close buy use my place at no charge and who cares if you're a lesbian. But lesbionest about that one lol. Too many close minded people in this world that is for sure!

Dawn's grandma wants us to do it in her back yard but I don't think so.. It's sadly a nice yard but it's a mess. There are people there that like to ruin things and just trash things. It's sad. You ask them to keep up with it and stop doing the things they are doing to ruin the yard but they don't care! It has nothing to do with them so why should they right? HA!

I'm starting to think we should just dress up in our dresses and walk our happy selves down to the Justice of Peace ( it's literally right down the street from my house) and get married then throw a reception/party afterwards. BYOB? Too redneck? Well I don't care lol. I'm an okie and I said Bring Your Own Beer if you wanna party it up! It's not a party to us. It's a day of becoming one and celebrating that we're able to do so in the state of New York!

Any tips or ideas? Would it be terrible to use paper plates if we're having a summer wedding and doing a cook out thing? Oh I need some guidance and help because lord knows I (Aleasha) will be planning and doing everything. I just need help. Is that too much to ask of or for?

Sorry for being a baby. I'm just stressing about how to go about the wedding. I can't even think of a theme or idea on how to come up with one.? Gay Pride wedding? Too tacky? HELP HELP HELP!!

Aleasha

Hello headache...

Oh and hello you lovely migraine that loves to visit me almost everyday! I'm not trying to complain and I'm so sorry if I'm coming off like this.. But can I get a few days and not have a headache.. I've seriously thought about cutting all of my hair off because it's the longest it's been in years! And when I am doing something like cleaning, doing laundry, cooking and ect.. I have a very bad habit of putting my hair up into a tight pony tail.. Why you might ask.. Well my mother, aunts, grandma and ect would put my hair up sooooooooo tight I swear my face would be pulled back lol. So I'm used to it being tight and neat and out of my way. Having you hair up is not healthy for your hair.. So why keep it long anyways? Well I'm getting married in 1 month 1 week and 1 day! I want my hair to be long and flowing.. Now afterwards is a totally different story lol.. 

Anyways.. I always get these horrible headaches, and they always end up being migraines towards the end of the headache. Then I have these symptoms along with my headaches/migraines: pounding, ringing, dizziness, nausea, hot/cold flashes, short blackouts, and sometimes a clammy feeling.. Not a fun thing to deal with.. I know having my hair growing out doesn't help it.. But like I said I want my hair long for when I say I do.. And I like it! But I don't like dealing with this BS! There are some days the headache is just there but I can cope with it and I just ignore it as much as possible.. But when it gets bad don't even whisper to me! Don't like them at all! Like always dealing with many other medical problems and other painful things in my life.. I try to just get used to it.. And ignore them a lot.. I just don't like the side effects I get from them sometimes.. I mean who wants to be dizzy, nauseous, ears ringing, head throbbing, hot/cold flashes, short blackouts (meaning if I move too fast or walk up or down the stairs it sometimes starts getting dark) 

Anyways I think I'm going to close this post.. And try to lay down for a bit.. Oh BTW! I watched Never say Never by Justin Bieber himself lol.. And I will admit I liked it.. And I'm happy for the guy! Way to go JB! lol Ok I feel weird now! Have a nice day everyone! And may all your dreams, wishes, wants, needs, and desires be fulfilled ♥♥♥♥

Thanks for reading

Always,

Aleasha